What an awsome experience! Its soo interesting to get you own expectations exceeded soo much by something which was right in from of your eyes..

The longer I live, the more I realise that perception spoils a lot of thing.. I have been sitting in a class with a few other individuals which I have barley known. it was a group assignment which finally made us all crack and actualy realise how much we all had in common. I was astonished. All this time I was looking for open minded people, in vain, when they were actually right in front of me. And the effects are amazing! i really truely love life! when it pulls such stunts on you!

Now I am smiling.. because life is good. althoug things are ending new things are beginnig which are totally incredible! for which I really truelly cannot wait! I you allow yourself to be.. then amazing things happen... and that is what i am very very very gratefull for! thank you!

It is beyond my ability to describe the speed at which time seems to be passing by me...its like someone pushed the fast forward button when I wasnt looking....and now it is all jst flying by me..one minute at a time..

When I was a little kid..I always wanted to eat as many eggs as I could.. chocolate eggs that is.. untill one eater sunday.. I got a nasty stomance bug.. and well all the puking kind off put me off chocolate eggs for a while! but what can one do.. but recover and wait eagerly untill next year..so that I will be able to devour a HUGE number of chocolate eggs again,

but that was long ago.. and these days.. when I try to be a contious health eater.. well my will power sometimes does fail me and I allow myself to occasionally stuff as many chocolate eggs as my body will allow before getting a total sugar rush...followed by that sleepy lethargic feeling... hmmmm not good...but still yummy..

Other than that...love is going good..or adleast better than it was a while ago..

I have a missing factor in my life.. and thus I have decided to embark on a journey which will hopefully in the end.. find me a suitable religion to follow.. one which will fit within my views of life and help me fullfill my purpose a bit better.

live..for it is all you have right now :)

I wish that i could sometime..... be able to morf myself into some sort of different form... perhaps a butterfly would be appropriate............yet it is far to gentle and beautifull for my devilish soul...

yet I want to fly... go to places unseen by the human eye... I want to go t the deepest corners of the earth and the highest parts of mountains... and trees...

Would I be able to let go of all that I hold.. or would that also prove to be a challange that stretches beyond my abilities? or would i find it easy to dump it all.. fuck for what its worth...there must be more to life than this? surley? there is much more to life that the adrenalin, than the polluted brainwashing we are faced with..... yet howcome it always seems to me, that I am the only one who is able to distinguish this distastefull bluber from the real life???

where did you go my fellow friend.. I do miss you indeed....